Grace & peace

I awoke at 2am feeling very worried, confused & especially, guilty.  I am having a few weeks off BSF,  to rest, which is very strange. I am not feeling well today, physically, so I decided not to go to chuch today. felt guilty about that. After a little prayer It occurred to me that the Lord doesn't want me to feel like this, He wouldn't give me these feelings in order to make me feel dreadful! So I listened to the 2nd half of Dwight Saunders speaking on Laying Down your Life here, http://vimeopro.com/phoenixfirst/services and then there was a sermon called from Worrier to Warrior, that seemed appropriate so I listened to that too. It was taken from the story of Gideon & I found it very helpful, then I was able to go to sleep.

The Idea of not going to BSF is very strange, I depend on BSF for discipline to read the Word every day. So today I am thinking, will I read the word every day? Hope so!  I suppose if I lived far from a BSF I would have to. There's the Bible-in-a-year thing readily available online & of course we do actually read the bible at church, Ste asks us to read the coming week's text every day in preparation. I rarely do cos of BSF. So I will start there, reading Revelation 7 this morning with the kids.
Well, I say this morning but it's already 11am, two are watching tv downstairs and my teens are abed.